Life as we know it

cc://{In five days i'm going to die. I know how and I know why, but it still doesn't seem fair to me. I've barely had time to live and now I have to die. I will no longer exist on this earth and I just don't understand why I have to go. So here's the big question, What do you do if you only have five days to live? For some people the answer is easy. Spend it with your family, enjoying each other's company and reminiscing good times you've shared together. For other's the answer comes in the form of pleasing themselves. Selfish indulges to only satisfy themselves before they die. This could be making love to whoever and whenever in the short span of the five days they have. This could be eating all the food they've ever wanted to eat and not caring how fat they will get because they have only five days left. To others they could also take as many risks as they want. This includes crazy activities that could kill them before the fifth day. But honestly some of these people just don't care. But why only five? If I had more time I would want to travel, if I could travel.

       You see I cannot do any of those things in my five days. Why you ask? Well it's because I'm a machine.In five days I will be unplugged and my 'light' will go out and I will seize to exist in this world.  But if I'm a machine how can I die, if I was never truly alive in the first place. But you don't understand because I am alive! I am alive because electricity surges through me, because people like to use me. You don't have to have a heartbeat or breath to be alive. Sometimes you just have to be remembered by those who are alive. you will be alive in someone's memory, in their heart. Then you will find what it truly means to live.

For me it's not so easy. I will not be remembered by anyone and I my memory will not live in someone's heart. When they unplug me the electricity that surges through me will be gone and I will not remember anything about this world or the people that were here or why I even existed. It scares me, and I can't do anything about it. I want to find peace, but I can't. I'm just plain scared. I want to go on living, even if I am not really alive.}cc://